Too often..

Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone.
Too often we're too stubborn to say "Sorry, I was wrong".
Too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts.
And we let the most foolish things tear us apart.

"Sorry, I'm too often wrong Sunbeam."

Sunbeam

bayurakhman 20:43
you'll have a beautiful life. you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky. from Dabr

setelah gw pikir, begitu banyak salah yang gw lakuin dimasa lalu, terlebih salah menyakiti dan menyiakan2 orang yg sdh baik sama gw. Gw pernah ketemu dengan dia dulu, dia si penyesalan. Walaupun sudah bertemu dan berteman cukup lama dengan si penyesalan ini, tetap saja saya tidak belajar dari dia.

And this is my confession.

2010 saya bertemu dia disebuah tempat berkumpulnya anak2 muda untuk bergembira dengan mengalirkan alkohol di peredaran darah mereka. Hai gw bayu :), "hai gw X" sapa dia. Kami pun mengobrol dengan sedikit godaan dari teman2 saya, "sibuk banget nih berdua kiu kiu". Kami saling mengobrol, membicarakan hal2 standar mulai dari pekerjaan dan sebagainya. Wow "The Girl Who Could Fly" dalam hati saya berbicara sendiri, dia bisa terbang seperti sebuah burung garuda betina.

Tampaknya angin sedang mendukung saya malam itu, dia bergerak cepat dan berhembus dingin, "jaket x ?" kata saya, sambil terdengar suara "kiu kiu kiu" lagi dari teman2 saya. Akhirnya kami pun saling melambai(yuuuuukk bo') sambil berjalan ke mobil dan suaranya menghilang disapu oleh suara mobil yang lewat.

"Hey ini dia facebooknya "xxixxa axxxa xxxxxxxaxi"", kata saya jam 3 pagi berusaha mencari facebook dia dengan mata yang sudah tidak cukup kuat untuk berkedippun. zzzzzZZZZZ lgsg ambles dikasur tidur sampai minggu siang.

Siangnya jari saya tidak berani untuk menekan tombol add as a friend, "ahh itu cuma malam2 biasa bagi dia bay, paling dia juga lupa", kata saya dalam hati. "xxxxxxx wants to be friend" sebuah notifikasi di bb saya keluar. Selang berapa menit kemudian, hey saya di add!!!!! horeeee potong tumpeng, mandi kembang, syukuran 30 hari, potong kepala kambing *sejujurnya saya hanya bakar 1 batang rokok dan tersenyum2 sendiri girang hidung kembang kempis:).

Ngga lama sebuah notifikasi message facebook masuk,

She Wrote :

Mas bayu...aku mau pin  kamu dong...jadi kalo aku k jkt aku bs kasi tau kamu trus kita bisa bertemu temu lagi....hehehhe

ngantuk ah besok ngantor, banyak meeting, brief, deadline, ntar gw lanjutin lg(siapa yg peduli bay mao lo lanjut apa ngga he2)zzzZZZZZ

Royal Ego - Senandung (Music Video)

Royal Ego - Senandung

Shot on 5D Mark II

Director : Dmaz Brodjonegoro and Sakti Marendra
Producer : Bayu Rakhman
D.O.P : Deska Binarso
Art Director : Agung WS
Wardrobe : Tasha Gitari
Motion Graphic Artist : Sakti Marendra

Stick a round for Royal Ego 2nd vid clip guys! You'd be amaze!

Daisy in my lazy eyes

My eyes were lazy

But i see you like a daisy

My hearth goes crazy

And we're still hazy.

-Bayu Rakhman-

Twenty Thousand Rupiahs Top Up

It's not much..

but hope it'll help ya' get the job..

i guess it's my unfinished job..

for somehow help you get your dream job..

and you got it today! horay!

Do you ever fell?

do you ever feel like you've made the wrong decision and want to undo it?

do you ever feel like you hurt someone that love you for someone who hurt you?

do you ever feel like you're accepted but doesn't belonging?

do you ever feel like you're feeling are mixed up so you don't know if you're still in love?

do you ever feel like you have a partner but you don't know a single damn thing what she's thinking or dealing with?

do you ever feel like you've become someone else that you don't like when you're with a person?

do you ever feel like you've tried your best but it just wont work out?

do you ever feel like there are world war III between your heart and your head?

do you ever feel like you want to let it go..

Do you?

ARK.

i see sky turning white to dark

an ocean sea from calm to billow

i set my self sailing with you my ark

but why you're always move so slow..

and i bended oars and ran upon the rocks

made you hit hard slips an anchor down

i tried paddle and save us from crocks

but sky was dark for you to see and let us drown..

i dream this ark a very long time

have to watch it sink is not a fond

for me it's not a moment to be prime

it's my treasure feeling thats gonna gone..

yes this is for you..

have a happy life, a good career, a good lover, a good faith with Allah, and keep on the cute smug...